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I would like to meet a female who does not smoke or vape and has their own career path as well doing as they please.
However, being loyal and faithful, if it gets that far, is seriously needed as is communication with the ability to listen to each other.
Life happened. I was once a selfish, lying, child in adult clothing but something happened that thankfully changed my life.
I am frightened of people but miss the one thing I crave, real companionship - a real woman of inner beauty.
I have a few talents, some still to surface. I am now a man of mystery and will only share with the right lady.
I only have my life to share as I am not loaded, I struggle to buy a burger, so I eat grass from the garden. You get the point that I am not rich or well off but I do have loyalty, ability to listen and hold you when you need to be held.
I do love countryside walks, theatre, arts, opera, cinema and very unusual natural nature.
I am petrified of love yet I crave to be held again.
There's no photo just yet, anxiety issues.